(These first seven blog posts were originally letters, written and emailed to our friends and family. I am including them here because they are a big part of telling our story.)
God is good. His timing is perfect and His ways are perfect. We are trusting in Him.
After one last strong kick yesterday afternoon we had a long night of stillness from our little Evie. Ryan and I went to the midwife's office this morning for them to check on her and as the monitor was placed on my tummy, a still silence was all we heard. Our Evie has been freed from this world.
We are now in labor and delivery at Vanderbilt where labor is being induced and we expect that we will meet Evie's earthly body sometime tomorrow morning. It will be a long night for us and those that are here with us.
It has been a strange thing to mourn so deeply and grieve so painfully the impending loss of our sweet daughter. It isinteresting, though, that we have not found ourselves grieving for her, only for ourselves and those who will also feel this loss. Today we do not need to mourn for Evie or anything that she will not have or experience. To die is gain. Nothing Ryan or I could offer her would ever compare to eternity with Jesus in heaven. We mourn for ourselves, we celebrate for our Evie.
Pray for us now as we look ahead to a long, painful night both physically and emotionally. God is already blanketing us with a peace that passes understanding, and with the comforting relief of knowing that Evie's work here on earth iscomplete.
As we watched her still figure on the ultrasound machine this morning we were able to echo Paul's words in 1 Corinthians 15, "O, death, whereisyourvictory? O, death, whereisyour sting?" We do grieve, but not as those who have no hope. While we were not able to defeat death for our Evie Grace, there is One who already has.